Christmas with PFU

Ok the pictures are kinda blur but ah wells!

Anyways it's always nice to meet up with them again for these special ocassions! Ate gooood food cooked by Berek's mum, played charades till out voices cracked and citadels haha!

It was fun lurh with these guys (:

And of course the gift exchange as well, just really nice to see everyone making the effort to give and happiness to receive gifts :D Haha ok my words here for this post is kinda bad, but thankful nonetheless ^^

haha I know that beneath all the anger and hurt, I still miss you and love you.

Ironic as it sounds I love you dearly and probably always would. You want to be friends? I'm sorry but I afraid I can't (at least not right now). I wish sometimes that you would just disappear entirely from my life so things would be much easier. But such foolish, wishful thinking. 

I don't really know what else to say

Christmas! :D

It's Christmas! 

Not very sure what to say but what I learned today was just not to put God in a box. Not to expect Him to be something our own (puny) human minds perceive Him to be, and when He isn't what we ezpect Him to be, we reject Him.

Because God is a God we cannot fanthom and understand, so as He reveals Himself to us, it is up to us to trust and have faith in Him (: 

As the year draws to a close it's scary. This year hasn't been an easy one honestly. Pray my heart wouldn't break at the end of it all, but instead be transformed into one filled with excitement and determination to Glorify God in ways so much more (: 

Blessed Christmas everyone. Although you may not experience christmas lights/gift wrapping/turkey for dinner or carols. Just know that Jesus is the reason for the season, and He loves you very very much! 

Caroling day 2!

Remembered how I hesistated to join caroling because of my (cui) guitar skills. Haha but glad I took up the offer. 

Many many thanks to Ryan who guided me along the way and helped me improve especially in my barre chords! It was really enjoyable playing with you! And of course to the aunties and uncles in the caroling team, I'm glad we "averaged out" the age difference HAHA. Thought the age difference is great, the quirky jokes and (unexpected) crazy laughters made everything really fun hahaha!

Kinda sad that it's over but yayyyy Merry Christmas! :D

Hope that all the houses and the All Saints Home we went to were blessed with joyous singing, bright smiles and festive laughter! ^^ God Bless!

Caroling!

Was caroling day 1 yesterday and it was sure hectic but FUN haha! Many many pictures to come! And this is the only space where posting selfies ain't weird lolol.

Anyways off for sunday service and then round 2! (:

Christmas is COMING!!!

All of our memories so close to me just fade away

All this time you were pretending

All the things you hide from me

Stupidity

All the lies you threw at me. The excuses you gave which I dumbly believed and trusted you enough to think they were explanations. 

The more I think about it the more the bitterness grows. Oh God how can I stop this from happening? It is not wrong to be angry but yet I feel so stupid...lacking of self-respect, dignity, and was just plainly an object of pleasure and fun in his eyes...

I was used, played with, performed with. Why? Why do things have to go this way to crush not only the emotional side of me but my confidence and self worth? It's just such a weird feeling. Gahh how and why was I so freaking dumb.