Easter Sunday!

Today's Easter Sunday! Had a good time in church today, and the sermon spoke to me quite accurately one way or another! So happy for two of my cell members who got baptised too (:

Well school starts tomorrow again ><" haha the feeling of knowing that there's no school on the next day is actually really nice. 

Living life wild and free, really wanna know so much more about God but gotta put in even more effort than what I'm doing now~~

And took a selfie in the morning, because today's a happy day (: 

It's there in my head almost 24/7 still

But it's not hurt I feel, it's more of numb.

The loss I feel whenever I think about.

But I know it's different at your side.

These days are those days you just sit and wonder what could have been

But I mean it's done, what is left to ponder still?

The feeling of cards folded and thrown away still lies.

Resentment comes and goes...deep ones. But no one is to blame...I should have known better.

Look at the one above, what do I think He would do? It's painfully hard, not sure if anyone can ever understand but Him alone. 

I mean..I doubt anyone can heal me even if you try. It's only me and Him alone.

All thing greeeeeen

Got new sports gear today!

greeeen sports shoes

greeeen sports bra 

And mum just boiled some greeeeen japanese beans for me after my run! Hehe

Oh wells running 1) gets your mind off things 2) allows some music time 3) gets the rush feeling of sweating it out 4) some fresh air 5) staying fit and have a tones body LOL

So if anyone wants to know 'why in the world I like to run' well that's your answer haha

Windows are red and stained with rain

The curtains are fluffed, trying to pat them down.

The wind fluffs them up more especially a big gust.

A gentle breeze makes it easier.

Confused, Angry, Hopeful, Waiting, Wondering, Love

Haish....it's hard really. 

Sometimes I'm fine, other days I'm not.

I gotta really just close my eyes and pray and pray. Comfort comes...but sometimes just for a while.

And then when that sharp pang comes, tears well up in my eyes and then subsides because hey no use crying.

I'm still waiting, and waiting sucks. Well waiting for something amazing is definitely worth waiting for. But then, there's so much uncertainty which makes waiting almost torturous for me.

And then everything boils down to trusting and knowing that God will do what He does. But then...what does it really mean to trust God? Can I ever trust Him completely?

Random blog post again.

Well this week went by not bad I would say. Though I'm so busy with three tests in a week, but finally they are over (: ok...have another two next week ><

Met Belle today to study (every thurs so far) haish....have not seen my Darling for quite some time now. I'm proud to see him volunteering so actively in TOUCH and making good use of his hoidays (: 

Haish....still it's been kinda long since we've met? I feel haha.

Infront of my desk

Penning down notes

Yet in my heart

I pen down thoughts

Cause I can't help it

Can you?

To think of you whenever I stop working

It's beautiful to hear your voice saying those words

Haha sometimes a brief distraction 

But always a real comfort