The world should just open now so I can hide in a hole and rest without time passing by

4th Anniversary

For starters, this is probably the first time we went out and celebrated our anniversary >< HAHA! But anyways

Went to Punggol waterway today (: and although the photos don't seem like it, we were both quite sweaty and sticky haha! Well I think out dates have always been a lot of walking, travelling, eating and more walking (and forgetting to take full length body shots ughhh)

It was a realy interesting day haha! Most things didn't go as planned but glad it didn't rain (: it definitely wasn't a candle light dinner/princessy anniversary but it was a Ben and Pris kinda thing hahaha ^^

Well it was definitely a fun one, and I'm so glad you liked the present I made for you (:

You've been the greatest most sweetest darling I could ever have (: thanks for always being here and there whenever I need you (ok not 100% always but...you know what I mean)

It's already been 4 years! Quite amazing haha (: and I love all the conversations I have with you and all. I love you very much and yes, I can't wait to continue this journey together with you till the very end (: Happy 4th anniversary my darling ❤️

I don't think many people know this about me or see it. Not sure how many peole would know about it now since it's posted.

But there's this thing about me is when I like you, I really like you. But when I'm cautious or have a bad impression of you, it takes a really long while and probably other factors for me to like it.

Gosh...I'm struggling

I don't normally take solo selfies...but when I do..

This is bad I'm being ridiculous :/ 

To give without expecting

Well yup the title says it all.

To give without expecting...expecting anything in return. It's not easy...maybe not for everyone but it's hard for me at times.

I mean in the case of volunteering by helping shelter dogs I find myself not expecting anything frim those dogs or from anyone honestly. Haha yea probably only when working with dogs I'd have that mentality HAHA. Working with humans...well yea that's different. 

I would always have this expectation of how situations would turn out, how I hope situations would turn out, and when I hope I kinda 80% feel like it'll come true. And so yea when it doesn't, I get really disappointed haha! So shallow of me to think like that but sometimes it's a real struggle especially in relationships. Relationship I have with Ben, with friends, even with family. And yea I tend to either get mad or annoyed or just really hurt when these expectations are not met.

Read Romans 1:8-17 today and saw how I shouldn't actually be expecting anything from humans because we do what is right, not what is for pride. 

Haha yea all these are head knowledge and I'm still working on exercising it in real life situations. 

It's so easy to be sucked into this world where what we do is being judged, being witnessed by those around us. So we have the tendency to seek approval from others and when we don't we just felt like it was bad or maybe just other random thoughts.

So I gotta learn

This is a really random rant, but yea some thoughts that has been bugging me for a while now.