Friends for life

Through the laughter, tears and joy

I pray that we will draw ever closer to one another, and come to witness how our friendship would bloom ^^ 

Love ya Tiffy! ❤️

New cup! Haha

Hehehe always wanted this CookieMonster cup. Not just because it's cute (which is a huge factor) but also because my cup is dirty and old LOL

The face inside is so cuteeee :3

Hahaha thanks dear for getting for me ^^

Always learning and loving

Communication is very important in a relationship.

Talking about things that are awkward and not really nice to hear issues are important.

But of course you gotta have love. Because we are bound to be tactless at times, approach certain problems and conflicts the wrong way and disappoint and hurt the one we love.

That is why when you really love and care for that person, and your relationship, things are bound to work out with great joy in the end ^^

I love you my darling Ben!! ^^ ❤️

Post Prelim holidays!

The selfie sucks but whatever tryna get my unruly fringe outta my face.

ANYWAYS post-prelim break was something I really needed I guess. Being able to just sit and not have to plan what to revise next is quite amazing HAHA. Plus, I got to do random things that I enjoy and writing cards to people too haha

I'm glad I got to catch up with JC friends, and church ones as well ^^ 

I can definitely say I've had plenty of rest mentally. But emotionally...not really heh. First day after my last paper had some misunderstanding and disagreements with Ben...church friends are struggling with family issues and same for myself. JC friends having a pretty rough time in Uni. And honestly, hearing all these ain't really nice.

Well, still thankful for this break and I really pray that my results I'm getting back next week would go well and I really want to see improvements for every subject honestly. Leave it all in yor hands God, teach me along the way as well.

Hope everyone is doing ok! (:

Self pity?

Enough of self-pitying 

It consumes you and gives you no way out but digging yourself deeper into sadness.

I see so many people telling themselves after a break up that they'll never love again, it's hard to do that, I don't feel the same anymore, I won't ever find another, I am not fine, I will never heal, things won't be the same.

Yea sure things will not be the same, you may not be fine now, you may not be healed now. But seriusly stop the self-pity

Cause self-pitying is pride. 

Telling the world that hey everything is about me. I can only receive love, and my love is so precious that once I gave it to this girl or that guy none of that love is left in me. 

Really? Your love is so special? You sure?

What makes you think that you're so untouchable? 

It's so easy to be in self-pity and be stuck there and sucked into that cycle. I wouldn't expect anyone to heal right away from hurts. You need friends, community, God to heal you. Trust me I've been there I've done that and self-pitying is not the way to go.

But fine if you want to stay there and believe that you'll never get out of that feeling. Feelings lie. Fine if you want to create yourself into someone you wouldn't want to be just because of a breakup. Seriously...stop being so prideful.

Because there are a million and one people out there who needs your love, a milion and one animals out there who needs your care. Life ain't about you and finding a girlfriend or a boyfriend. Yes it hurts (trust me I know).

But honestly there's so much more.

And God has so much more for you.

Thoughts~

Maybe it seems bias to say this, but...

I'm not in a life or death situation

Neither am I going through some crisis

But I really thank God for those that still talk to me, encourage me through my JC journey.

To my cell (this constant community that I am certain I would have and be with the rest of my life), to Berek (whom I believe does not fully understand what JC life is all about, but hey somehow he is always there and telling me to study hard yet chill haha, and make me laugh.That's just really nice), and of course to my sweet darling Ben (always here to talk to me, to pray for me and to brighten up my day) 

Seems awfully selfish to focus only on what people are doing for me. But...it's still nice to have it (: and I thank God for that.

My Darling Ben,

To my sweet darling whom I love and I know who loves me just as much as well.

Arguments with you ain't fun (duh) at all.

But as time goes by I've come to accept conflicts as opprtunities to get closer to one another and not avoid it!

And I thank God that communication between both of us have grown plenty throughout the years! ^^

I know I pushed a tad too far today...making little things seem like a huge dynamite. And...hurting you...

What you did for me on Friday and Saturday, and many days before for so many years will always be in my mind...how we worshipped and prayed together, how you bought the lip balm for me, how you kissed me and hugged me so tightly for many many days without fail ><

I love you very much darling ^^ 

Really blessed and joyful to have you hehe ><

^^

Hehe thanks dear for today, just a simple day of jogging and having dinner, but with the really nice session of praying together and worshipping too ^^

Love you darling, let's continue growing strong in the Lord and walking closely with him! 

Spamming

Come lemme spam cause I'm feeling hurt and tired and mad and annoyed, mixed with other emotions.

Maybe I should give those little creatures (what you see in the movie inside out) a lecture to stop disturbing my emotions and giving me a rollarcoaster ride of my dreams NOT. 

Duh I'm not exactly busy ya know. Ok yes I'm busy from mornings till 12pm doing what? Studying? Yea duh BUT NO...hello I'm a human being and being an extrovert I wanna and would love to interact with people at the end of the day. You don't even understand my feelings. Ahem yes you are an introvert and talking isn't a big issue for you, but hello to me it is ok?!!! 

LIKE SERIOUSLY wake up your idea