The Longest Ride

Well hello again (: haha

Well, went to school today to do OP and then went home for a good run and just spend time with mum playing video games haha!

And have been watching My Little Pony videos on Youtube since like about 5 plus until 9.30. Gosh...hahaha! 

And went to meet berek to get em brownie cookies! Hehe

Wells, then have been cuddling up with Benry and reading a good book. Just finished 'The Shack' and now reading 'The Longest Ride' oh my gosh when I opened the book I'm like so excited and half hoping it wouldn't end so quickly because i have not read one book of  Nicholas Sparks' that did not leave me with this feeling in my heart~ tugs at my heartstrings so much ><

Haha anyways besides that it was just a good day of no responsibilities and just doing what i want/enjoy which is really nice haha! Ignorance is bliss that's what they call it, but still makes me feel sluggish and useless at times lol

And yayyyy no school tomorrow ^^ gonna catch up with my book, my little pony videos anddd gotta start doing I&R ><

Best of all hehehehehe gonna meet my sweet dear! ahh so happy ^^

Well, I'm gonna get back to my juicy read!

Missing you

lalalalala feeling kinda bored because maybe I'm having a lazy day today.

Yea played only 2 songs on the piano and then switched to guitar. Less than 15 mins I turned on my com and now I'm staring at it and just started blogging. Gotta go iron my clothes but not budging ><"
Sooooo I'm missing my dear ><

I'm really filled with thankfulness whenever I think about my family, him and church and everything.
Yea know regarding school...haish I gotta buck up next year and glorify God through that!

It's wonderful really to always see how we forgive each other everytime and just loving each other even through all those crappy most terrible moments. But that's when you really see how someone loves you right? haha
Yea a bit cliche? But it's very true eh haha.

Thankful ^^

Haha was day dreaming of the many things I want xP

1) I want cute socks!
2) I want another dress
3) I want booties
4) I want a new pair of converse
5) I want a light coloured cardigan
6) I wanna watch the sunset
7) I wanna lie under the stars
8) I want a dog
9) I want a grand piano
10) I want feathered hair clips
11) I want against the current shirt  and bracelet!!
12) Can i just have all the Against the Current stuff?
13) I want more books
14) I wanna watch piano guys live
15) I want helium balloons

these are only the few stuff I could think of now haha xP
and then comes to the many things I have which are more long lasting

1) A Great God, Father, Friend, Teacher and just everything who loves me ^^
2) A perfectly imperfect family who loves me ^^
3) The sweetest and also imperfectly perfect darling who loves me ^^
4) Churchmates and a great cell leader
5)Seriously God is all we need, and the others are just the sweetest most wonderful bonouses ever ^^

Blessed and thankful (I realised are all people).

Michelle's 22nd Birthday!

Michelle's 22nd Birthday!

It was a wonderful day today ^^
Was Michy's 22nd Birthday and we bought 22 flowers and gave them to people all around church and she had to scout all around to find us HAHAHA it was really fun especially since our youth pastor and her husband joined too xP

Wells, I can't thank Michy enough seriously for all the time she invested in my cell :D
Mummy Mich she is to us all ^^
She was the one of the few people who changed my life. Encouraged me to join WAMM, to join youth camp and Batam Mission trip. Through those I saw God so much more, met so many friends in church and this is who I am now.

Well, she even picked me personally to mentor me and two other girls in my cell. It's really wonderful to learn new things every other week when me meet up for a meal and whenever I have something urgent and needa meet her or something, despite her schedule she'll still find time to meet up...even talking to us from overseas!
Manz I'm so thankful for God really for bringing her into my life :D
The amount of tears, joy and everything else we shared was amazing and I'm really filed with joy warmth and a little bit of aching too because I hope she can be my cell leader forever D:

Will always be so thankful for her!!! best cell leader ever ^^
Thank you Michy so much for everything and I hope our friendship lasts for many years to come! Hehe ^^

Just about today

Seriously...lost my temper again and hurt people again.
Manz and it's quite bad when I'm crying and she's crying and we are talking while crying and being angry but trying to get our points across as nicely as possibly in the tense moment. Haish

Oh wells...I guess it really isn't the right way? But at least we got to say some stuff we have never told each other before. Communication is really important, it can either make someone understand you a lot or not much at all. I don't really think there's an in-between between the extends.

feeling tired already from all the crying and reflection. Annoyed too that until now I have not really changed much regarding my temper....there is but it's a super, really slow, sometimes insignificant progress.

Well, thank God still for a good and so much better improved presentation I had with my group today during Oral Presentation (: Great job guys!
And had a good run today as well, my stamina seems to be fine. ( thought it dropped when I ran yesterday because I didn't run for a week or something haha) Your stamina cannot possibly decrease after a week/ 2 weeks of not exercising...can it?

lalalala~ oh right wanted to go to this Run For Hope thing with Ben or Belle but it's on 17 November which clashes with my baptism day :(((
I was soooo disappointed cause I really wanted to go run for that. It's only 3.5km and non-competitive! Totally my distance and type of run. Always wanted to go for these kinda runs for charity or something. Well, maybe next year then (:
Yea of course 17 November cannot be missed for anything because I guess for me it's a pretty big day :D

Anyways, I gotta go rush my I&R by tonight, soooo tata!

Fever, sick :(

Oh mans, so I got a really sudden high fever while doing PW in school yesterday.
It was so bad I could feel the heat when I closed my eyelids
Luckily, I got better after eating medicine and sleeping then went back to school because I had to go to NUS for a campus visit.
It was really worth it :D

But dang...at night fever came back
But yayy I got better this morning and went to church because I had this talk about cell groups that Michy asked me to go and something I wanted to attend plus I had band practice. So...didn't wanna miss church.

Oh wells and then fever came back again and took medicine again to just keep it down ><
and guess what until now my fever isn't back yet yayyyy hahaha.
Well yea not really a big deal but I don't like getting a fever because I take really long to recover from it (temp just keeps fluctuating)

And of course sermon today was about family and it was good. A good reminder again to remind me to honour my parents and really know practical ways to honour them. Well, I'm gonna start with this tone of mine and really help my mum around the house much much often ><
Ok shall be accountable to it!

Wells, what i learnt in the talk today by Philip Huan had some really interesting points and lessons. Gonna share it with my dear when he gets home from his camp (:

Love, Vintage, more Love ^^

Hello!!
Ok so met up with my dear again after a whole week. Manzz it feels really long even though it's a week ><
So glad he took time off for me even when he had touch yesterday plus camp tomorrow.

Well, took back all my papers like finally and no I didn't meet promo criteria..but getting a B for Geog was nice :D
La ti da~ so pw today was whooooo our WR finally got accepted and was well done! (as said by our teacher) yayyyy

Well noting much today actually, just my darling Ben bought us matching bracelets and a vintage watch I've always wanted to get! hehehehehehe and I was squirming with happiness on the bus xP
ahhh can't wait to wear it soon ^^

Hope tomorrow will be a good day when I go to visit NUS arts school!

Look at the pretty watch ^^

God is good, all the time

Wheeee so yea it's nice to start blogging more often nowdays.
kinda forgot how fun is it to blog now and then haha
Well, so got back my results, main aim was to obviously do my best and pass everything buuuut passing science was impossible haish.
At least I'm glad that I've passed my GP, Math, and Geog (that I'm taking back tomorrow but duh I'm gonna pass that..if I don't I can bang my head lol)

Well, I gotta work really hard, just glad my parents are supportive of it and still happy and all.
And I can't say I don't feel sian or happy or something. Getting U grades for two H2 subjects ain't great. Have been feeling down the whole day :'(

Jc1 really wasn't great. ..
1) studied hard for Mid-years but got sick and missed all (except GP)...
2) Cca dates clashed with church...
3) Self-esteem was really lowered down by my peers in school...
4)Felt like I was bullied by my peers and so alone for the first time in my entire schooling life...
5) Had family health issues and other random problems...
6) Sucky results for Promos...
7) and Made wrong decisions and gotta switch stream..

But the thing is,
1) People start coming up to me asking why am I always so happy everyday
2) cca dates changed on the exact day I prayed for it to be changed
3) Friends outside of JC encouraged me and show that I'm still important to them
4) My family grew closer
5) My mum conquered an illness so great
6) I'm growing much more spiritually (dependency on God, prayer, faith)
7) Relationship with Ben has grown
8) I don't feel like I'm any less loved by anyone else
9) I know I'm stronger now

Yes, I remembered even halfway through JC1 I still missed secondary school life and friends..wondering why things couldn't stay that way forever. Even now I miss those times.
But the thing is, secondary life was my season where I prospered in school, where I was blessed with amazing friends, where everything I shone was in school.

But now I finally realised this year I guess is my season of growing a lot spiritually and relationships wise. Everything that happened I can't see how I could have went through without God really. Many miracles happened before my eyes. If none of this came, would Ben keep telling me to depend on God and not on him or any other human beings?
Would Ben point out the fact of being at peace?
He reminded me about what I learnt in church, about being at peace isn't about a smooth journey in life, but being able to be in the right relationship with God and let him be in control even in the storm.
And I thank God for that.

I really find it impossible to think that if God wasn't looking out for me, helping me, and guiding me I would be able to come out of JC1 feeling good. Yes honestly I'm feeling down now because of my suckish grades..because of the fact that I gotta leave my friends and work a lot harder next year.

But I can also say that this year has been really fruitful, one of the most fruitful one of all. I will never forget this year because I came out of it with many blessings. Whatever obstacle that was thrown at me, God showered it with blessing (every single one of them) 
My mum...was a miracle I love God and I love her so much more now.
The troubles that Ben and I had, we got out of it together with God there nudging us all the time. Prayer and love was what got us this far. And I can feel I love him so much more now, and him as well.


I can type this forever because I really have everything to thank my dear God for^^
God,I think it's one of the best you've got me in, got me through, and got me out of. 
After everything I got closer to my family, to Ben, and especially to God :D
Hope what I've gone through, can be a blessing to my friends!

God is always faithful, He is always good. Forever and forever and forever~~~
❤

Quiet Simple Beautiful Sunday

Well, so today was a nice day altogether (:

Had church in the morning where I learnt more about Allos Parakletos! and definitely more exposure through baptism class ^^ and I'm so glad that Sean is getting baptised together with us as well!

anyways, yup so went to ehub after church to find bracelet for my dear but in the end he told me it's rip off or something and I got really mad for him not telling me when I purposely went all the way there >< eeeks >< buuut he said he'll go get a pair for us so yay ^^

and of course had a good good dinner with my family, and I wanna request to go out with my mummy this tues! ❤

Anyways, I've been blogging quite a bit suddenly haha more time now anyways. 

Well have not been very consistent with my QT I must admit, but yea me and dear still constantly reminding each other to remember to do our QT every night which really helps ^^ I'm so glad!

school begins tomorrow again ><" well hope all goes well especially my results. PRAY and have FAITH in God! :D Goodnight guys ^^

P6 in youth ministry!

Woooo so finally we welcomed the P6 to YM! It was a great time eating bbq food (although I didn't eat a lot because not healthy ah ><)

But I got to know a few of the P6 girls and boys and hopefully will be much more comfortable around them too during camp!

Hahahaha finally cell leader told me who my camp commandant was! Ryan!! I'm kinda happy it's him cause he's so easy to talk to and we talked a couple of times too >< Hahaha anyways, I pray we can work well together and have chemistry to bring this camp to a success haha ^^

Oh wells it's really late at night and tomorrow I have baptism class! Have not been exercising much this week also because I'm busy/lazy. should tun tomorrow morning! 

Haish though I can't meet up with 2E2 tomorrow, but I guess I really wanna spend time with my family ❤

2E2 dinner!

Yayy 2E2 dinner today ^^

was looking forward to it since don't know when haha.

Sooo we went to MOF and have no idea that we're gonna call that 12 scoops ice cream thingy haha! ^^ but yea was a nice birthday treat for chyrston, eng jian and zong han as well (:

Though, on sunday they will be going to Sentosa. Manz gonna miss out on the fun..but at least gonna join them later on! Anyways...going out these few days I really don't have $30 to spare since I gotta donate money to church too!

(Oh and thanks my sweet dear giving 10% of your work money to donate to my church, or more specifically to God's work ^^)

Well, on the way to church now and the P6 are coming in! :D 

Gaming

Waaa finally wanted to play team fotress after so long of not using my laptop for gaming purposes. But guess what game can work but I cannot add friends from steam (yea lurh wanted to play with Ben de) but manz seriously == wasted my com space ><

Going out for dinner with 2E2 but the bus ain't here yet...ok caused I missed it >< but yea wait until feel like sleeping and my tummy is grumbling D:

Cloudy 2!

Yayyy went to watch cloudy with a chance of meatballs today with my dear ^^ haha the movie was really cute! With stuff like tacodile (taco and crocodile) flamango (flamingo and mango) and cheese spider! Hahaha it was really cute.

Funny thing was Bryant helped us book tickets because Ben had to rush off for family lunch and I had school and he chose super infront seats when the entire cinema  had almost no one >< hahaha! It was so funny but in the end we changed seats!

So after the movie, went to pasir ris park at 7.30 for an hour. Hesitant to turn back because we saw lightning >< but ai'm so glad we didn't ^^ so we just sat at the breakwaters, and really just talked about everything. Told each other about our day, our problems and stuff it was just a SWEET, WONDERFUL, PLAIN BEAUTIFUL night  with him ^^ 

Going to these kinda places just makes me fall in love with him all over again, and I'm seriously so happy and thankful to have him ^^ ❤

Anyways, gonna have dinner with belle their! well, looking forward to it as always (: it's important to know that even as we get on with life and lead different ones, we never forget who the ones we treasure the most and make the most of the time we can spent with each other. You may not realise it now, but no one would ever want to wait till the 'too late' moment to find out. 

I love God, I love my family, I love Ben, I cherish 2E2. it may not be easy catching up everytime but as long we all want the relationship, with love everything will be beautiful (:

Beautiful day ^^

Ahhhh it's late at night and I'm sleepy but today was too good a day to not blog about this!

well, went to bugis to get my bracelets and then Ben's idea was to walk from bugis to city hall to clarke quay. And yes we did that! Got $1 ice cream there too!!

Haha we went to super random places like fort canning cause we wanted to cross through that place to reach the mrt station. And passed by singapore national museum and went to so many shopping malls just to get the air con haha!

Well, then we took an mrt back to bugis (cause we were tired by then) and ate at Lenas!! ^^ it wasn't exactly cheap but the food was really good ^^

And of course we headed back home and gonna catch a movie with him tomorrow too!

Well at the side note, missing beapm and guys in 4E2 as well, glad for dinner on friday and can't wait to see those friends again ❤ precious people.

Thanks darling for the wonderful day and it was really fun ^^

Yay ^^ exams over!

Finally exams are over and yayyyyy ^^

Well, went out with my jc clique today gor some cycling, crazy moments and eating and tamp too (:

Well finally a bit of relax time before pw comes in in less than two days and hiong already ><

Tomorrow I'm gonna meet my darling like finally >< after almost an entire week of not seeing each other miss him so >< one werks seems kinda short but it really feels soooooo long ><

Wrll, gonna sleep now so can jave full energy tomorrow!

Thank you God for bringing me through the papers, and for a great family, friends, and that sweet dear Ben ❤

Baptism!

Well finally decided to get baptised on Friday! Haha told cell leader and my childhood friend,Beatrix gonna baptise too! Yeeeppp we were just waiting for each other ^^ sooooo ready and excited for it!

And of course michy and youth pastor asked me to be co camp commando for the P6 camp when they come in during Oct! Heh heh I prayed about it! And yes I can't wait for it seriously :D soooo exciting!!! OMGOSH GOT LASER TECH EHH!!!

Wondering

I really hope I can do so much more to help the people around me

And of course I wonder how to as well. If I'm not suitable enough to help them now then when? Seeing my friends stressed up...clueless of the future and stuff makes me wanna do so much more, makes me wanna show them who God is.

But manz...I still have not grown much in that aspect, really not easy to do something like that and I always hesitate.

Wonder when will the right time come, want the courage and the wisdom to do all that.