Christmas with PFU

Ok the pictures are kinda blur but ah wells!

Anyways it's always nice to meet up with them again for these special ocassions! Ate gooood food cooked by Berek's mum, played charades till out voices cracked and citadels haha!

It was fun lurh with these guys (:

And of course the gift exchange as well, just really nice to see everyone making the effort to give and happiness to receive gifts :D Haha ok my words here for this post is kinda bad, but thankful nonetheless ^^

haha I know that beneath all the anger and hurt, I still miss you and love you.

Ironic as it sounds I love you dearly and probably always would. You want to be friends? I'm sorry but I afraid I can't (at least not right now). I wish sometimes that you would just disappear entirely from my life so things would be much easier. But such foolish, wishful thinking. 

I don't really know what else to say

Christmas! :D

It's Christmas! 

Not very sure what to say but what I learned today was just not to put God in a box. Not to expect Him to be something our own (puny) human minds perceive Him to be, and when He isn't what we ezpect Him to be, we reject Him.

Because God is a God we cannot fanthom and understand, so as He reveals Himself to us, it is up to us to trust and have faith in Him (: 

As the year draws to a close it's scary. This year hasn't been an easy one honestly. Pray my heart wouldn't break at the end of it all, but instead be transformed into one filled with excitement and determination to Glorify God in ways so much more (: 

Blessed Christmas everyone. Although you may not experience christmas lights/gift wrapping/turkey for dinner or carols. Just know that Jesus is the reason for the season, and He loves you very very much! 

Caroling day 2!

Remembered how I hesistated to join caroling because of my (cui) guitar skills. Haha but glad I took up the offer. 

Many many thanks to Ryan who guided me along the way and helped me improve especially in my barre chords! It was really enjoyable playing with you! And of course to the aunties and uncles in the caroling team, I'm glad we "averaged out" the age difference HAHA. Thought the age difference is great, the quirky jokes and (unexpected) crazy laughters made everything really fun hahaha!

Kinda sad that it's over but yayyyy Merry Christmas! :D

Hope that all the houses and the All Saints Home we went to were blessed with joyous singing, bright smiles and festive laughter! ^^ God Bless!

Caroling!

Was caroling day 1 yesterday and it was sure hectic but FUN haha! Many many pictures to come! And this is the only space where posting selfies ain't weird lolol.

Anyways off for sunday service and then round 2! (:

Christmas is COMING!!!

All of our memories so close to me just fade away

All this time you were pretending

All the things you hide from me

Stupidity

All the lies you threw at me. The excuses you gave which I dumbly believed and trusted you enough to think they were explanations. 

The more I think about it the more the bitterness grows. Oh God how can I stop this from happening? It is not wrong to be angry but yet I feel so stupid...lacking of self-respect, dignity, and was just plainly an object of pleasure and fun in his eyes...

I was used, played with, performed with. Why? Why do things have to go this way to crush not only the emotional side of me but my confidence and self worth? It's just such a weird feeling. Gahh how and why was I so freaking dumb.

Random update!

This picture is not even at starbucks lol

Well, so I'm here at starbucks waiting for Tiffy to arrive for a study date! My as well write a blog post since I've not done so for quite a while.

Ok there isn't exactly some bombastic exciting thing happening in my life except for Alevels? Hahaha well it's been going alright so far (hopefully my feelings are true to the papers and results)

Have appreciated days out with Ben so much more, days out with churchies and the weekends haha. Tomorrow is inter CG games! It'll be fun I bet (:

And of course I'm down for caroling (playing the guitar for them oh gosh). It seems easy but NOOO not with my substandard guitar skills which I only plan to brush up after alevels. But haha here I am having to play for many houses for whole of 2 days from afternoon till night.

It's awesome lah to have this privilege to bless other homes (: just gotta pray and work hard!!

And my MOE teaching internship interview date is released! Eeek two days after my last paper ends hahaha! Gotta go buy some "casual office" clothes cause there's a dress code. And yea many many things happening in December so I can't wait, yet I hope it'll be a restful one (:

SO EXCITED FOR CHRISTMAS! :D

Alevels are tomorrow!

I am utterly blessed and super touched (cried so many times today) by all of your messages, notes, and this pretty bouquet of flowers ^^

Feeling so vulnerable, emotionally and mentally tired these few weeks. But you guys have been my strength and lifted me up whenever I'm down and I am really so so grateful. I thank you dear Father for the numerous blessings you have endowed me with.

I honestly can't think of what to say or how to express how touched I am but thank ya'll all so much ^^

I can't wait to grow up with you guys even till the day we get married/have kids and grow old really. 

Josiah cell, I'll cherish every moment of every day ❤️ I love of all ya'll ^^

To you:

To my sweet darling. I thank God for you almost every other day.

I don't think I've ever felt this tingly warm feeling with anyone else. 

It's wonderful to know that you'll always be next to me, protecting me and being there for me (: 

I love you so much darling ^^ 

Happy Sunday ^^

Wheee

Took me a while...

I guess it took me a while to realise what living a life of simplicity means.

In the most tangible sense, would be the lack of money, the need to stand up and support others, and really never to rely on myself.

Have been apart from PFU for a while now, sometimes feeling like I'm not a part of them anymore. Well...different times different seasons and I think I slowly am trying to understand (:

I thank God for allowing me the space to concentrate on family. To just be here to grow with my family, to go through the many trails together. Also, to spend time with my darling Ben, to always be learning and supporting and encouraging one another. To build a community we share together. And also, to concentrate on my studies to find out how to rely on God in such times as well.

I guess I have the tendency to think about myself (probably most of us do). Wondering why my secondary school friends don't even bother to ask me how I'm doing (because yea manz I'm going through so much but none of them realise actually lol) 

And yes I'm afraid...probably I distant myself too because of money issues. I just can't afford to spend more than $15 a day or something I don't know

But then...why should they know? It isn't the right time and yes it probably isn't because...

I think I really accepted the fact of moving on and not trying to fight my own battles or placing myself in battles I wanna try to fight. If I shouldn't be there then I just shall not be.

I thank God for community and for loved ones that are always there, because they are the ones I know God have placed in my life to guide, instruct and love me (:

It's not easy, but why should it be? It's gonna be a journey that's what it'll be. 

Life ain't smooth sailing at the moment

But I guess it makes me wanna work harder, pray harder, rely so much more on Him. 

Because...I really can't get through all these things by my own

Friends for life

Through the laughter, tears and joy

I pray that we will draw ever closer to one another, and come to witness how our friendship would bloom ^^ 

Love ya Tiffy! ❤️

New cup! Haha

Hehehe always wanted this CookieMonster cup. Not just because it's cute (which is a huge factor) but also because my cup is dirty and old LOL

The face inside is so cuteeee :3

Hahaha thanks dear for getting for me ^^

Always learning and loving

Communication is very important in a relationship.

Talking about things that are awkward and not really nice to hear issues are important.

But of course you gotta have love. Because we are bound to be tactless at times, approach certain problems and conflicts the wrong way and disappoint and hurt the one we love.

That is why when you really love and care for that person, and your relationship, things are bound to work out with great joy in the end ^^

I love you my darling Ben!! ^^ ❤️

Post Prelim holidays!

The selfie sucks but whatever tryna get my unruly fringe outta my face.

ANYWAYS post-prelim break was something I really needed I guess. Being able to just sit and not have to plan what to revise next is quite amazing HAHA. Plus, I got to do random things that I enjoy and writing cards to people too haha

I'm glad I got to catch up with JC friends, and church ones as well ^^ 

I can definitely say I've had plenty of rest mentally. But emotionally...not really heh. First day after my last paper had some misunderstanding and disagreements with Ben...church friends are struggling with family issues and same for myself. JC friends having a pretty rough time in Uni. And honestly, hearing all these ain't really nice.

Well, still thankful for this break and I really pray that my results I'm getting back next week would go well and I really want to see improvements for every subject honestly. Leave it all in yor hands God, teach me along the way as well.

Hope everyone is doing ok! (:

Self pity?

Enough of self-pitying 

It consumes you and gives you no way out but digging yourself deeper into sadness.

I see so many people telling themselves after a break up that they'll never love again, it's hard to do that, I don't feel the same anymore, I won't ever find another, I am not fine, I will never heal, things won't be the same.

Yea sure things will not be the same, you may not be fine now, you may not be healed now. But seriusly stop the self-pity

Cause self-pitying is pride. 

Telling the world that hey everything is about me. I can only receive love, and my love is so precious that once I gave it to this girl or that guy none of that love is left in me. 

Really? Your love is so special? You sure?

What makes you think that you're so untouchable? 

It's so easy to be in self-pity and be stuck there and sucked into that cycle. I wouldn't expect anyone to heal right away from hurts. You need friends, community, God to heal you. Trust me I've been there I've done that and self-pitying is not the way to go.

But fine if you want to stay there and believe that you'll never get out of that feeling. Feelings lie. Fine if you want to create yourself into someone you wouldn't want to be just because of a breakup. Seriously...stop being so prideful.

Because there are a million and one people out there who needs your love, a milion and one animals out there who needs your care. Life ain't about you and finding a girlfriend or a boyfriend. Yes it hurts (trust me I know).

But honestly there's so much more.

And God has so much more for you.

Thoughts~

Maybe it seems bias to say this, but...

I'm not in a life or death situation

Neither am I going through some crisis

But I really thank God for those that still talk to me, encourage me through my JC journey.

To my cell (this constant community that I am certain I would have and be with the rest of my life), to Berek (whom I believe does not fully understand what JC life is all about, but hey somehow he is always there and telling me to study hard yet chill haha, and make me laugh.That's just really nice), and of course to my sweet darling Ben (always here to talk to me, to pray for me and to brighten up my day) 

Seems awfully selfish to focus only on what people are doing for me. But...it's still nice to have it (: and I thank God for that.

My Darling Ben,

To my sweet darling whom I love and I know who loves me just as much as well.

Arguments with you ain't fun (duh) at all.

But as time goes by I've come to accept conflicts as opprtunities to get closer to one another and not avoid it!

And I thank God that communication between both of us have grown plenty throughout the years! ^^

I know I pushed a tad too far today...making little things seem like a huge dynamite. And...hurting you...

What you did for me on Friday and Saturday, and many days before for so many years will always be in my mind...how we worshipped and prayed together, how you bought the lip balm for me, how you kissed me and hugged me so tightly for many many days without fail ><

I love you very much darling ^^ 

Really blessed and joyful to have you hehe ><

^^

Hehe thanks dear for today, just a simple day of jogging and having dinner, but with the really nice session of praying together and worshipping too ^^

Love you darling, let's continue growing strong in the Lord and walking closely with him! 

Spamming

Come lemme spam cause I'm feeling hurt and tired and mad and annoyed, mixed with other emotions.

Maybe I should give those little creatures (what you see in the movie inside out) a lecture to stop disturbing my emotions and giving me a rollarcoaster ride of my dreams NOT. 

Duh I'm not exactly busy ya know. Ok yes I'm busy from mornings till 12pm doing what? Studying? Yea duh BUT NO...hello I'm a human being and being an extrovert I wanna and would love to interact with people at the end of the day. You don't even understand my feelings. Ahem yes you are an introvert and talking isn't a big issue for you, but hello to me it is ok?!!! 

LIKE SERIOUSLY wake up your idea

Community

Just want to thank you God for providing me with such a wonderful community that has stuck with me for so long and grow up together with.

Realy thankful for this bunch of people, a community that is always here for each other, and I really hope that as we step into our new journey as a YA cell we would continue to grow so much closer and deeper with You and towards each other as well.

As we build we laugh, we joke, we almost go crazy haha. But I pray that we will continue to build each other up in our actions, our words, being this close knitted family that will persevere on as we  walk the life of being young adults (: 

Times flies

Time fies really. Gosh...alevels in about 2+ months and that's it. Honestly no parts of me want the day to come any sooner (although I know I would have a super long break) cause I'm not yet prepared :(

I wanna end this whole JC journey STRONG ANG GOOD, and I've yet to get there really :(

Well, still persevering and still working GOTTA KEEP GOING!

On a side note went to NEX yesterday with my sweet dear for dinner at Monster Curry! Lol we couldn't finish the rice and all thag cause it was really too much even for the both of us >< and after walking around we got yogurt hehe ^^

It's really great honestly to be out of Pasir Ris after a long time haha! 

Well, for now I gotta go back to my books! ><

So I miss my long hair

It was the longest hair that I grew honestly LOL (and it didn't even reach te bottom of my rib cage yet) haha weird units of measurement but yea

So this is my shorter hair now (not that anyone can see it cause of the horrible lighting LOL) but I still miss my long hair haha! Wheeee~~

Seems long

Haish...seems long since we've had a proper date together and I miss you dear. 

Progress tracking time!

Well honestly no progress LOL

So from the last picture I took (which was months ago) I honestly had no progress haha! Still maintaining I guess? Because of school and the weird timings I couldn't be as consistent as I hope I would be.

And honestly snacked quite a bit on junk food sometimes.

Lol my friends who touched my tummy said it was really hard and now they wanna see my abs...TSK. 

Ok just to clear things up i first started exercising because of road race (I wanted to run fast and be one of the top) what I was concentrating on was STATUS. And then afterwards when momentum started to kick in and coming across Kayla, I wanted to look nice with abs, what I was concentrating on was LOOKS. But after all that it motivated me to not only look at those things for motivation, but the main thing was to stay healthy so when i grow older (after all the abs etc melt away) I would still be healthy on the inside! 

(Look at my previous posts about how motivation just for looks can wear off sooner or later) 

My point is, it's really fine to want to have abs and look nice/be able to look nice wearing crop tops, because I believe that's where the majority of people get their motivation to exercise from! 

But let it not be your long term goal.

YUP!

Well, I'm still trying to fit at least 28mins of HIIT every alternate day and rests inbetween. And of course eating healthier (cause that's what matters as well).

It's becoming a habit already and I love it (: well hope I'd see more defined obliques and abs haha! And yes for my arms to be (not buffed cause I hate that haha!) but just lean! 

A Saturday well spent

Well yesterday was a different Saturday, and a Saturday well spent and grateful for (:

So instead of attending service/cell as usual, my dad brought us to Marina Boulevard to watch the NDP preview fireworks! 

So I went to church as per usual in the morning to serve in the band (: but left shortly after worship. To cut the long story short, we sat there as a family (behind some bushes sounds weird but it was a good view! Haha!) waiting for the mini fireworks to start at about 7.30 and then the grand finale at about 8.15-ish.

Haha best part was that the place we were at still had a view of the screen so we could see what's going on at Padang, and we saw the tanks up close!! (Because after they were done with the parade they drove to the road we were close to haha)

Yup the fireworks were great! I mean I've not seen fireworks for a really long time!! Haha >< 

And then went back home to continue with my studies (phew) and had a long late night call with my darling till about 1.45-2am haha >< (yea when I have someone to talk to I don't find myself getting tired...an extrovert thing I guess haha)

It was a really really nice talk especially since we have not called each other over the phone to talk at night since sec 4 I think? 

We talked about quite personal stuff which I've not known about it (or only had a vague idea of). Comes to show how much more (exciting) stuff to learn about my darling even after 4 years. 

Haha I believe you can never fully understand someone because of change and all that, and that's when you know things aren't boring because there's always something new to explore, discover and learn (lol sounds like some politically academic answer, but it's true haha!)

Thank you God for a wonderful family, and thank you God for Ben. I don't think I ever blogged about this thought but, it feels so special to actually be working towards a stronger relationship and even marriage to my dear Ben (: 

So that sums up my Saturday I would say! (:

Dear Priscilla~

Let me be

Give me a little time to be in fantasy

To listen to my favourite music

To go to the beach in the sun 

(A bonus would be to have my dog right by my side)

Let me be

Give me a little time to be in fantasy.

PFU Dinner!

Well ok just about half of PFU haha!

Was initially supposed to be a celebration for Belle's birthday but haish things came up so...we gotta postpone it >< 

Hmm since it's so late at night, I'm not gonna type out every single detail that happened because what really mattered to me is that even after such a long time (4months) since I've seen all of them, I'm just super super thankful that all of us still had such an awesome time ^^ (i really need to chill haha! Like what all my friends are advising me to do LOL)

It's amazing how all of us are growing up and facing new experiences and challenges. From last year of poly life, to the army, to the university (and yes me, still here in jc haha!)

Catching up with you guys and all that is wonderful.

And Chryston, I realy hope we have more time to talk about school, church, and God haha. Miss those times (:

Well, I love ya'll many many and can't wait to meet up again soon ^^ 

First cell book study!

Well! So we are finally 19/20 year olds in our cell and that means MOVING ON TO YOUNG ADULTS!! 

Had our first book study on "Jesus The King" by Tommy Keller at Meredith's house yesterday!

So yuo we started off with a yummy hearty lunch cooked by Meredith's mum. And I just gotta say in my mind (Meredith you live in a terrace house and have a maid, your house is clearly missing a dog D: hahahaha)

Ok but anyways, Ben brought along Gabriel today! Was realy happy to see him after a long while.

The book study was really not bad in my opinion. Made us think deeper about certain issues and think about some questions which we think we may have an answer for but actually, we just ain't thinking enough haha!

Leading on Sat was also a good experience! Hopefully next week's study will be as or even more fulfiling as yesterday's (:

And something to thank God for, Gabriel said he realy enjoyed the cell time (athough it's much different than what he's comfortable with etc.) and he actually wants to come back again! WELCOME YOU BACK WITH OPEN ARMS GABRIEL! Hahahaha

Till next time! (:

Late nights

It's 12.03am and here I am on my bed...writing a random post.

I'm so tired (physically) as in I wanna sleep.

School hasn't been easy...really felt the drive to work hard after what my teacher said today in consult.

But haish...when I look at what I gotta do and then looking at the time...it seems almost impossible. 

Well with my own strength it will be impossible, God teach me how to rely on you because sometimes it's so hard and it gets so tiring. But in You, I am strong Your strength is made perfect in my weakness. 

Body image

Well recently so many body image stuff are being mentioned or talked about.

Fashion such as skinny jeans, crop tops etc. all require some sort of perceived slim body to look beautiful. Well yes I admit (honestly) that slim girsl do look much better in crop tops and skinny jeans (that's my opinion)

But guess what, I'm not a VS model.

I have always been self conscious about my own body image especially my thighs. I mean really they aren't skinny and neither do I have what some girls call "the thigh gap"

To cut the long story short, beauty and fitness ain't always about looks (because honestly WHEN YOU GROW OLD EVERYTHING IS GONNA CHANGE) 

But you know what doesn't change?

Your character

Your personality

Your outlook

Yes...your inner beauty does not. Instead we all mature and try to be the best we can (:

Fitness isn't all about looks but how it makes you FEEL as well. I mean why strive towards short term happiness such as being able to wear clothes that show off too much skin and exercise just to look slim? Trust me, before long that motivation off looking that way will die off especially when we become mums and dads (not saying everyone will be likewise, but probably a majority don't you agree?)

So, striving towards being healthy (just putting in 30mins of workout can be good enough!) feeling good, even exercising with friends and bonding together is so much more enjoyable!

Yup, the fashion of clothes are ever changing and so does the 'popular' body image (I mean a long time ago plump women were the most beautiful haha!) 

And just to sum it all up, neither body image is good nor bad. God has made us who we are and it's our job to take care of our bodies, the Holy temple of God. 

But strive to be healthy both inside and out.

I've probably just recently started to accept my own body image and structure. But yea that's how it is! ^^

❤️

(Haha you know it too) There are some days when you can hurt me so much, or make me wanna explode or make me annoyed at every single thing you do. Well relationships aren't always a fairytale 

But honestly, I've no idea how I can be so deeply in love with you even with all those 'not so great' feelings. I love you very much dear, thank you for being mine all this while and for so many more to come ^^ 

Relenting

So sometimes there are certain things I expect. And I mean they ain't that high...are they? 

And so I tell myself to lower my expectations. Well I thought I did. Only to realise that instead of lowering expectations, I force myself to take it like "Ah wells, it's quite normal so heck it Pris". I guess lowering expectations means you've come to accept it and therefore feel cool about it. But I've turned it into a far more negative thing...it becomes numb in a way.

I don't exactly know what to do with myself sometimes. Cause I feel sad when you don't meet up to what I expect. Neither do I want to throw a tantrum. "Sorry" means "I know I'm in the wrong/in the wrong too, so I'll try to improve and not let this happen again.

So sorries are useless and nothing to me if nothing's gonna change...

I getting tired of all the sorries that amount to almost nothing. Well sometimes there is, but sometimes there isn't. 

I know feelings are too tentative. You can't base your feelings to judge situations...because it's so unreliable. But sometimes without that warm feeling of peace and joy, it's a bummer. A real bummer.

And so here I am, going through the motions. No, I shouldn't say that. Cause I hate going through the motions and being numb with things. 

We'll see how it goes.

Mid Years over! One day of good rest.

WOOTS MID YEARS ARE OVER! and my last paper was still quite alright (: 

So was suppose to go and cycle at ECP with my mum and sister today. Buuuutt due to the haze, my mum didn't wanna go >< but we went shopping instead hahaha!! (Ok honestly I would choose cycling over shopping serious, but since I've been running out of clothes to wear, and my wardrobe's totally outdated and a bore...I didn't mind shopping ^^)

I managed to get a few tops and all and a new pair of jeans! 

Lol ok this is so weird cause I've never had a blogpost in my entire life talking about shopping and what nots. But yea I've not shopped for half a year (and most probably not again till 5-6 months later), so I was really quite excited haha! 

Finally came home to make chocolate chip cookie dough for tomorrow so I can bake quickly for Saturday's cell ^^ 

And yea...can't forget that next week is my turn to worship lead so I gotta start planning and send chords in by Sunday/Monday.

Well today was a good day honestly to finally take a breather and rest (:

School starts tomorrow again! (We arts student had no rest while those Bio students ended on Monday and had like...4days of break?! But ah wells haha)

Studying ain't over yet, the goal's far but not so far away. So come on Pris, continue pushing and pacing yourself to finish the while marathon with a HIGH!

Yay!! ^^ 

Rebel. Ok not

Haha ok this title doesn't say much.

Getting ready for church today and wore this. But nope I wore a cardigan over in the end lol.

So I felt like a rebel wearing this Haha. Yea cause I've not worn sleeveless like forever. And since the only time I'm out and wearing outside clothes, 98% of the time would be to go to church, I doubt I wear anything more revealing than probably just my wrists HAHA!

Ok not saying I can't wear sleeveless to church but probably I just don't.

Buuutt actually kinda thinking of wearing something like that to ATC's concert HAHA!

(Gosh I'm too fashion deprived honestly, the clothes in my wardrobe are always the same lol)

Well today was quite a terrible day cause I lost my wallet and got so flustered...but thankfully (like seriously Thank you God) a kind soul found my wallet and reported it (:

And I missed JDOP haish...yea cause I have exams tomorrow :/ ah wells

Exams hasn't been awesome lately honestly so I really gotta buck up for Prelims (if not I'm dead)

And of course I'd just like to thank all my awesome friends who have been walking this tough 2015 with me all this while (so far). Keeping me in prayer, asking me how things are (seriously it means so much) even if ya'll won't be seeing this (I think no one actually does haha..i don't even remember if this blog is privated) 

Really thank all of you who aren't only the ones who see the craziest side of me (and be crazy with me) but also the ones who build me up emotionally, spiritually. And of course the ones who are with me through my milestones and love me (:  

Tomorrow's MYEs

Ok so tomorrow is MYEs and it's just so crucial (personally I feel).

Have been feeling quite down lately because of not working as hard as I know I could have and I should be, but what's done is done and I'm still thankful for good friends by my side this whole time spurring me on and telling me to chill haha!

And yes thankful for meal at IKEA last night with church cellmates till it closed haha! Love ya'll loads ^^

Ok so tomorrow is GP paper and Lit paper 1 (great 2 of my weakess subjects) but I'm really really aiming for at least a C for these two subjects. I worked on them (though I know it's not enough) but still I'll do what I can phew ><

I'm sorry God I did not do my best...but I'll leave it all up to your hands. The fears and anxieties and the mentality that I have to meet my own expectations and my teachers' I'll leave it all to your hands.

Amen.

Day of studying with darling ^^

Yup so I can't not have a blog post about this wonderful day can I? Haha ^^

It was a really awesome day, and I'm so thankful for it ^^

So yup we went to IKEA to have our salmon and meatballs as planned (luckily the queue went pretty fast ><) 

Pacaked food home for my sis and on the way back we went to Giant to get our apple cider!! ^^ have been wanting to drink it for quite a while but never got round to buying it haha!

So when we came back we just studied and studied until dinner was ready! Haha dinner was quite cute really (my sis and I laughed like crazy at the start because of some sister thing and whatever my dad said haha!) 

And Ben and I continued to get fat afterwards by having a little bit of ice cream and our apple cider hahahaha.

And of course before starting work again, we played monopoly deal with my sis, and then we studied all the way till he gotta go home.

Haha that was a quick summary

Well, seems like a really simple Thursday. But honestly I felt so blessed and happy to have my darling beside me the whole day >< and that he realy enjoyed himself too ^^ presence of each other can't beat anything else! Haha studying has honestly never been that fun yet productive!

I love you darling ^^ ❤️❤️❤️

Little flame

A random picture of my candle

It's so pretty and smells so nice whenever I burn it (: 

Though I think the next candle I'd probably wanna get would be Yankee because the wick and all that is much better than this brand. 

Tomorrow my darling is coming to study with me ^^ and finally gonna go to IKEA for lunch!! Salmon and meatballs ahhh :D

Random pictures

Ok so the other day Ben went to Philippines and he asked me what I wanted. And yes of course I said I wanted a doggie something and guess what he bought! HAHAHAHA it was hilarious when he showed it to me!!

Ok yea I doubt I would ever wear it but cause it was a dog and it's from him, I took a few random shots when I was bored at home. HAHA! 

I love you dear thanks for making me smile ^^

Studyingg

So I've been preparing for my Mid-years this entire June Holidays.

Well...trying to and hopefully being able to haha cause manz...I keep getting distracted seriously (whenever did my focus level dropped?!)

Yup so it's been alright I guess, a good rest too! But worried that I'm not doing as much as I should be...and fearful as well. Well, God told me to rely on Him this month through a verse, and I won't forget that! (: