In the most tangible sense, would be the lack of money, the need to stand up and support others, and really never to rely on myself.
Have been apart from PFU for a while now, sometimes feeling like I'm not a part of them anymore. Well...different times different seasons and I think I slowly am trying to understand (:
I thank God for allowing me the space to concentrate on family. To just be here to grow with my family, to go through the many trails together. Also, to spend time with my darling Ben, to always be learning and supporting and encouraging one another. To build a community we share together. And also, to concentrate on my studies to find out how to rely on God in such times as well.
I guess I have the tendency to think about myself (probably most of us do). Wondering why my secondary school friends don't even bother to ask me how I'm doing (because yea manz I'm going through so much but none of them realise actually lol)
And yes I'm afraid...probably I distant myself too because of money issues. I just can't afford to spend more than $15 a day or something I don't know
But then...why should they know? It isn't the right time and yes it probably isn't because...
I think I really accepted the fact of moving on and not trying to fight my own battles or placing myself in battles I wanna try to fight. If I shouldn't be there then I just shall not be.
I thank God for community and for loved ones that are always there, because they are the ones I know God have placed in my life to guide, instruct and love me (:
It's not easy, but why should it be? It's gonna be a journey that's what it'll be.
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