Is it me? Or just me?

Sometimes, I'm not sure if I'm being plain selfish or just unreasonable or too sensitive or maybe I'm actually fine.

Have you ever felt that way? Well yea I do...a lot of times.

I mean like there are times when you really want the best for someone, yet somewhere in the back of your mind you want it because it makes yourself feel happy. ALERT ALERT doesn't that count as selfishness already? 

And then there are certain things that you sometimes expect someone else to do to you. But meh it turns out way differently. So I can annoyed/mad/sad, ALERT ALERT. Doesn't that count as selfishness too? 

It's hard honestly...to think for the better of others without putting yourself in the picture. Well I struggle with that even till now...for a really long time.

It sucks.

But I guess slowly...with the right people, the right self-consciousness and discipline, I think I would get there eventually.