Early Birthday Celebrations!

Not much to say here

Just that I'm gonna turn 20 very soon 

Annnnd again, God has indeed shown me so many people whom I loved and who loves me (:

For now, I can't wait for tuesday night where I get to meet my two very best friends for dinner ^^ 

Soon

What does it mean to be set apart as a Christian?

I don't want my breakup to be like anyone else's. You separate from the one you used to love and then silence follows.

They have to be a time where we reconcile. We become friends again no matter how terrible it sounds to me right now and how it even hurts to think about it (such that I wanna run from it).

So that is one way I can be set apart. This breakup would be different from how the world would deal with them.

My only hope/motivation is to obey. To be set apart for Your glory Lord. Because you love me so much. Soon.

New Year 2016

Prayed and thought of my usual "one word" for 2016 so here it goes.

The one word would the same as last year actually : Love (to be specific, is love that SUSTAINS)

In 2015, I experienced how much love I had in me and how I really expressed it in various areas of my life.

1) The love I experienced in my family and also how God has always been there throughout my alevel period. (look back at my previous post on how God spoke to me halfway through 2015)

2) The overwhelming love I had for Ben. Before everything went downhill of course. Although I feel that all the trust and love he had for me was all a lie, I know in my heart that my love for him was the most true one I've ever shown to anyone, Right now, looking ahead into 2016 I can finally channel all this love to new ministries and ultimately to God.

3) Lastly, I've come to experience the love of my best friends ever really. Bea, Tiffy, Abs, Timo ya'll are amazing, Of course not forgetting Michy who loves me so dearly as well. Such a tough time I had to go through right after alevels and they were there, to just have my back and comfort me etc. writing this makes me tear up honestly.

And of course not forgetting the abundance of love God has given me for animals (specifically shelter dogs). They have given me so much joy (:

Seeing how I would have to start a new job, volunteering at a new dog shelter, leading in WAMM, cell leading for the younger girls (gosh gotta blog more about this soon!!) and all seems daunting. But although much has happened in 2015 they were never burdens to me because I loved and was loved, all because He first loved us. So I want to carry on this "Love that sustains" with me into 2016, knowing that with such  overwhelming love in me I would be able to glorify God's name in many 

ways.

SO WHAT SPOKE TO ME at the start of Dec 2015:

Sometimes we lose our focus. 

We can be walking in love all day, going along fine, until someone comes along and offends us. As soon as we forget our focus of love, we stop making progress and come to a standstill- aggravated, upset and offended.

Understand that the mind is a battlefield.

If you don't stop Satan when he gets into your thoughts, you are not going to stop him from getting into your life.

Stay focused.

Ask God to help you remain full of love, no matter what comes your way today.

-Joyce Meyer

This spoke to me shortly after the breakup, and I felt that God is showing me how much more love I have to give to others and not just this one person. My capacity to love should not be sucked dry by one person but should always be overflowing because god's love for me is always abundant.

Though I sound like a hypocrite when I say that I have no energy...no drive to actually want to reconcile with Ben/forgive him/even think about it. (at least not right now). My emotions are right now stagnant at a certain state (which can peak anytime), and I don't exactly have plans to deal with them at the moment. It's just always too depressing and painful and emo (which I hate to be) to think about it. All I see are lies, betrayal and more lies everytime.

So, to sum it all up "Love that sustains" is my word.

It is what I know will keep me going in 2016 with so many transitions

It is what I want to glorify God with after he has blessed me with so much love

It is what I want to give to WAMM, cell, dogs, my family and friends.

So, HAPPY 2016 my friends ^^ 

My heart is definitely not 100% settled and sometimes emotions peak and things suck (seriously haha)

But things would still be alright I'm sure because God is here. He is my one and only hope, always faithful. I may be fazed for a little while but there are way too many people out there who needs to experience God's love and I can't just be here mopping anyways (:

Progress?

It's not all about the weight honestly. It's been long since I've weighed myself, and the last time I did I grew heavier! With the looks of it I'm definitely happy with my body and my lifestyle (: 

Remember how lethargic I feel and lazing around whenever I got bored. But hey HIIT exercises and running just made life a little better haha! So yea what I'm wearing are my training shoes (honestly wearing them>going barefooted)

Have yet to try out my running shoes but soon!!

Stay healthy by eating healthily and exercising. Beauty WILL fade. Enjoy it now and enjoy the benefits that come with it as you reach your golden years (: 

On a side note I want a runing buddy and am still dreaming of running alongside my dog haha. Cheers!

Neing shameless

No point colour matching or whatsoever when you exercise at home HAHAHAHA

New running shoes!

Ok so I've been running in my green coloured bulkier/heavier running shoes for a while now. And yup they served me well of course. 

And probably ever since I got my training shoes from Aussie I've been using them indoors too! But I've always wanted a lighter and brighter coloured running shoes with good cushioning

So...I can't say how stoked I am when my parents got me a pair for my upcoming birthday hehehehehe. Like seriously when I walked into the shop it just caught my eye and I'm like THAT'S TOTALLY IT. Plus it's really light and the cushioning is muchh better ^^ WOOOO

Awesomezzzz :D now running with greater speed haha! 

Christmas with PFU

Ok the pictures are kinda blur but ah wells!

Anyways it's always nice to meet up with them again for these special ocassions! Ate gooood food cooked by Berek's mum, played charades till out voices cracked and citadels haha!

It was fun lurh with these guys (:

And of course the gift exchange as well, just really nice to see everyone making the effort to give and happiness to receive gifts :D Haha ok my words here for this post is kinda bad, but thankful nonetheless ^^

haha I know that beneath all the anger and hurt, I still miss you and love you.

Ironic as it sounds I love you dearly and probably always would. You want to be friends? I'm sorry but I afraid I can't (at least not right now). I wish sometimes that you would just disappear entirely from my life so things would be much easier. But such foolish, wishful thinking. 

I don't really know what else to say

Christmas! :D

It's Christmas! 

Not very sure what to say but what I learned today was just not to put God in a box. Not to expect Him to be something our own (puny) human minds perceive Him to be, and when He isn't what we ezpect Him to be, we reject Him.

Because God is a God we cannot fanthom and understand, so as He reveals Himself to us, it is up to us to trust and have faith in Him (: 

As the year draws to a close it's scary. This year hasn't been an easy one honestly. Pray my heart wouldn't break at the end of it all, but instead be transformed into one filled with excitement and determination to Glorify God in ways so much more (: 

Blessed Christmas everyone. Although you may not experience christmas lights/gift wrapping/turkey for dinner or carols. Just know that Jesus is the reason for the season, and He loves you very very much! 

Caroling day 2!

Remembered how I hesistated to join caroling because of my (cui) guitar skills. Haha but glad I took up the offer. 

Many many thanks to Ryan who guided me along the way and helped me improve especially in my barre chords! It was really enjoyable playing with you! And of course to the aunties and uncles in the caroling team, I'm glad we "averaged out" the age difference HAHA. Thought the age difference is great, the quirky jokes and (unexpected) crazy laughters made everything really fun hahaha!

Kinda sad that it's over but yayyyy Merry Christmas! :D

Hope that all the houses and the All Saints Home we went to were blessed with joyous singing, bright smiles and festive laughter! ^^ God Bless!

Caroling!

Was caroling day 1 yesterday and it was sure hectic but FUN haha! Many many pictures to come! And this is the only space where posting selfies ain't weird lolol.

Anyways off for sunday service and then round 2! (:

Christmas is COMING!!!

All of our memories so close to me just fade away

All this time you were pretending

All the things you hide from me