Reality is what scares people

Uncertainty is what scares us more

I'm a dump...sitting here staring

Thinking and feeling

I don't want to be like this

Ok maybe I'm just exaggerating 

But no, I'm not exaggerating these feelings

I remember when I used to smile a lot

People ask me why am I so cheerful

I was indeed happy

Yes now I do smile, but short-lived

No one can really figure out what I'm really thinking

Because even though I like sharing...it takes a lot to make me share

And no one has the time and patience for that..

Uncertainty is what scares me

Although sometimes it's exciting

But not when you get disappointed so many times

Because you're just hoping the result is a happy one, not sad

It's been a long time...I feel...since I felt so happy.

Well...ugh stop doing this to yourself ==