Progress tracking time!

Well honestly no progress LOL

So from the last picture I took (which was months ago) I honestly had no progress haha! Still maintaining I guess? Because of school and the weird timings I couldn't be as consistent as I hope I would be.

And honestly snacked quite a bit on junk food sometimes.

Lol my friends who touched my tummy said it was really hard and now they wanna see my abs...TSK. 

Ok just to clear things up i first started exercising because of road race (I wanted to run fast and be one of the top) what I was concentrating on was STATUS. And then afterwards when momentum started to kick in and coming across Kayla, I wanted to look nice with abs, what I was concentrating on was LOOKS. But after all that it motivated me to not only look at those things for motivation, but the main thing was to stay healthy so when i grow older (after all the abs etc melt away) I would still be healthy on the inside! 

(Look at my previous posts about how motivation just for looks can wear off sooner or later) 

My point is, it's really fine to want to have abs and look nice/be able to look nice wearing crop tops, because I believe that's where the majority of people get their motivation to exercise from! 

But let it not be your long term goal.

YUP!

Well, I'm still trying to fit at least 28mins of HIIT every alternate day and rests inbetween. And of course eating healthier (cause that's what matters as well).

It's becoming a habit already and I love it (: well hope I'd see more defined obliques and abs haha! And yes for my arms to be (not buffed cause I hate that haha!) but just lean! 

A Saturday well spent

Well yesterday was a different Saturday, and a Saturday well spent and grateful for (:

So instead of attending service/cell as usual, my dad brought us to Marina Boulevard to watch the NDP preview fireworks! 

So I went to church as per usual in the morning to serve in the band (: but left shortly after worship. To cut the long story short, we sat there as a family (behind some bushes sounds weird but it was a good view! Haha!) waiting for the mini fireworks to start at about 7.30 and then the grand finale at about 8.15-ish.

Haha best part was that the place we were at still had a view of the screen so we could see what's going on at Padang, and we saw the tanks up close!! (Because after they were done with the parade they drove to the road we were close to haha)

Yup the fireworks were great! I mean I've not seen fireworks for a really long time!! Haha >< 

And then went back home to continue with my studies (phew) and had a long late night call with my darling till about 1.45-2am haha >< (yea when I have someone to talk to I don't find myself getting tired...an extrovert thing I guess haha)

It was a really really nice talk especially since we have not called each other over the phone to talk at night since sec 4 I think? 

We talked about quite personal stuff which I've not known about it (or only had a vague idea of). Comes to show how much more (exciting) stuff to learn about my darling even after 4 years. 

Haha I believe you can never fully understand someone because of change and all that, and that's when you know things aren't boring because there's always something new to explore, discover and learn (lol sounds like some politically academic answer, but it's true haha!)

Thank you God for a wonderful family, and thank you God for Ben. I don't think I ever blogged about this thought but, it feels so special to actually be working towards a stronger relationship and even marriage to my dear Ben (: 

So that sums up my Saturday I would say! (:

Dear Priscilla~

Let me be

Give me a little time to be in fantasy

To listen to my favourite music

To go to the beach in the sun 

(A bonus would be to have my dog right by my side)

Let me be

Give me a little time to be in fantasy.

PFU Dinner!

Well ok just about half of PFU haha!

Was initially supposed to be a celebration for Belle's birthday but haish things came up so...we gotta postpone it >< 

Hmm since it's so late at night, I'm not gonna type out every single detail that happened because what really mattered to me is that even after such a long time (4months) since I've seen all of them, I'm just super super thankful that all of us still had such an awesome time ^^ (i really need to chill haha! Like what all my friends are advising me to do LOL)

It's amazing how all of us are growing up and facing new experiences and challenges. From last year of poly life, to the army, to the university (and yes me, still here in jc haha!)

Catching up with you guys and all that is wonderful.

And Chryston, I realy hope we have more time to talk about school, church, and God haha. Miss those times (:

Well, I love ya'll many many and can't wait to meet up again soon ^^ 

First cell book study!

Well! So we are finally 19/20 year olds in our cell and that means MOVING ON TO YOUNG ADULTS!! 

Had our first book study on "Jesus The King" by Tommy Keller at Meredith's house yesterday!

So yuo we started off with a yummy hearty lunch cooked by Meredith's mum. And I just gotta say in my mind (Meredith you live in a terrace house and have a maid, your house is clearly missing a dog D: hahahaha)

Ok but anyways, Ben brought along Gabriel today! Was realy happy to see him after a long while.

The book study was really not bad in my opinion. Made us think deeper about certain issues and think about some questions which we think we may have an answer for but actually, we just ain't thinking enough haha!

Leading on Sat was also a good experience! Hopefully next week's study will be as or even more fulfiling as yesterday's (:

And something to thank God for, Gabriel said he realy enjoyed the cell time (athough it's much different than what he's comfortable with etc.) and he actually wants to come back again! WELCOME YOU BACK WITH OPEN ARMS GABRIEL! Hahahaha

Till next time! (:

Late nights

It's 12.03am and here I am on my bed...writing a random post.

I'm so tired (physically) as in I wanna sleep.

School hasn't been easy...really felt the drive to work hard after what my teacher said today in consult.

But haish...when I look at what I gotta do and then looking at the time...it seems almost impossible. 

Well with my own strength it will be impossible, God teach me how to rely on you because sometimes it's so hard and it gets so tiring. But in You, I am strong Your strength is made perfect in my weakness. 

Body image

Well recently so many body image stuff are being mentioned or talked about.

Fashion such as skinny jeans, crop tops etc. all require some sort of perceived slim body to look beautiful. Well yes I admit (honestly) that slim girsl do look much better in crop tops and skinny jeans (that's my opinion)

But guess what, I'm not a VS model.

I have always been self conscious about my own body image especially my thighs. I mean really they aren't skinny and neither do I have what some girls call "the thigh gap"

To cut the long story short, beauty and fitness ain't always about looks (because honestly WHEN YOU GROW OLD EVERYTHING IS GONNA CHANGE) 

But you know what doesn't change?

Your character

Your personality

Your outlook

Yes...your inner beauty does not. Instead we all mature and try to be the best we can (:

Fitness isn't all about looks but how it makes you FEEL as well. I mean why strive towards short term happiness such as being able to wear clothes that show off too much skin and exercise just to look slim? Trust me, before long that motivation off looking that way will die off especially when we become mums and dads (not saying everyone will be likewise, but probably a majority don't you agree?)

So, striving towards being healthy (just putting in 30mins of workout can be good enough!) feeling good, even exercising with friends and bonding together is so much more enjoyable!

Yup, the fashion of clothes are ever changing and so does the 'popular' body image (I mean a long time ago plump women were the most beautiful haha!) 

And just to sum it all up, neither body image is good nor bad. God has made us who we are and it's our job to take care of our bodies, the Holy temple of God. 

But strive to be healthy both inside and out.

I've probably just recently started to accept my own body image and structure. But yea that's how it is! ^^

❤️

(Haha you know it too) There are some days when you can hurt me so much, or make me wanna explode or make me annoyed at every single thing you do. Well relationships aren't always a fairytale 

But honestly, I've no idea how I can be so deeply in love with you even with all those 'not so great' feelings. I love you very much dear, thank you for being mine all this while and for so many more to come ^^ 

Relenting

So sometimes there are certain things I expect. And I mean they ain't that high...are they? 

And so I tell myself to lower my expectations. Well I thought I did. Only to realise that instead of lowering expectations, I force myself to take it like "Ah wells, it's quite normal so heck it Pris". I guess lowering expectations means you've come to accept it and therefore feel cool about it. But I've turned it into a far more negative thing...it becomes numb in a way.

I don't exactly know what to do with myself sometimes. Cause I feel sad when you don't meet up to what I expect. Neither do I want to throw a tantrum. "Sorry" means "I know I'm in the wrong/in the wrong too, so I'll try to improve and not let this happen again.

So sorries are useless and nothing to me if nothing's gonna change...

I getting tired of all the sorries that amount to almost nothing. Well sometimes there is, but sometimes there isn't. 

I know feelings are too tentative. You can't base your feelings to judge situations...because it's so unreliable. But sometimes without that warm feeling of peace and joy, it's a bummer. A real bummer.

And so here I am, going through the motions. No, I shouldn't say that. Cause I hate going through the motions and being numb with things. 

We'll see how it goes.

Mid Years over! One day of good rest.

WOOTS MID YEARS ARE OVER! and my last paper was still quite alright (: 

So was suppose to go and cycle at ECP with my mum and sister today. Buuuutt due to the haze, my mum didn't wanna go >< but we went shopping instead hahaha!! (Ok honestly I would choose cycling over shopping serious, but since I've been running out of clothes to wear, and my wardrobe's totally outdated and a bore...I didn't mind shopping ^^)

I managed to get a few tops and all and a new pair of jeans! 

Lol ok this is so weird cause I've never had a blogpost in my entire life talking about shopping and what nots. But yea I've not shopped for half a year (and most probably not again till 5-6 months later), so I was really quite excited haha! 

Finally came home to make chocolate chip cookie dough for tomorrow so I can bake quickly for Saturday's cell ^^ 

And yea...can't forget that next week is my turn to worship lead so I gotta start planning and send chords in by Sunday/Monday.

Well today was a good day honestly to finally take a breather and rest (:

School starts tomorrow again! (We arts student had no rest while those Bio students ended on Monday and had like...4days of break?! But ah wells haha)

Studying ain't over yet, the goal's far but not so far away. So come on Pris, continue pushing and pacing yourself to finish the while marathon with a HIGH!

Yay!! ^^ 

Rebel. Ok not

Haha ok this title doesn't say much.

Getting ready for church today and wore this. But nope I wore a cardigan over in the end lol.

So I felt like a rebel wearing this Haha. Yea cause I've not worn sleeveless like forever. And since the only time I'm out and wearing outside clothes, 98% of the time would be to go to church, I doubt I wear anything more revealing than probably just my wrists HAHA!

Ok not saying I can't wear sleeveless to church but probably I just don't.

Buuutt actually kinda thinking of wearing something like that to ATC's concert HAHA!

(Gosh I'm too fashion deprived honestly, the clothes in my wardrobe are always the same lol)

Well today was quite a terrible day cause I lost my wallet and got so flustered...but thankfully (like seriously Thank you God) a kind soul found my wallet and reported it (:

And I missed JDOP haish...yea cause I have exams tomorrow :/ ah wells

Exams hasn't been awesome lately honestly so I really gotta buck up for Prelims (if not I'm dead)

And of course I'd just like to thank all my awesome friends who have been walking this tough 2015 with me all this while (so far). Keeping me in prayer, asking me how things are (seriously it means so much) even if ya'll won't be seeing this (I think no one actually does haha..i don't even remember if this blog is privated) 

Really thank all of you who aren't only the ones who see the craziest side of me (and be crazy with me) but also the ones who build me up emotionally, spiritually. And of course the ones who are with me through my milestones and love me (: