Full of blessings.
I can honestly say 2014 has been a good year for me. Have been blessed many many from various aspects of my life, and have seen how God brought me through my fears and worries.
Cell retreat was wonderful. Gave me, and I believe others too, a time to look back, to reflect, to be different.
I'm concerned about school, how my grades would be, how the new timetable would work out and school work and stress etc.
But I'm really glad for the community of friends I have in church, the constant community of people that will still be there with me through transitions.
Last night (or actually 5am in the morning) was a special one. Managed to have a good htht with my dear Ben, and we shared quite a bit about what we think about our relationship now and improvements and direction he and I wanna take.
It's not easy, but the fact that both of us have a strong conviction to slowly transit between a boy-girl relationship to a man-woman relationship warms my heart and provides me with this drive to please God.
There always have been this struggle of pleasing God and pleasing your partner. And when you're not rooted enough on the foundation of Christ, the latter may happen.
I love Ben and pray that we will continue to improve, continue to have a surmount amount of love for God and each other as we grow as individuals to be more Christ-like and similarly as a couple.
I can't deny it's scary, the thought of the possibility that we may actually not be together. I pray and try my best to hope that will not happen because it scares me. But I believe this is something I should accept because even though I'm so sure he's the one for me right now, God has greater plans and I know He'll pull me through the greatest struggles.
I'm so happy to see the progress of our relationship so far. But phew there's way way wayy more to be done and I'm excited despite the fears. Excited to see what God has in store for us, and the many blessings He has yet to give us. Excited too for the many more opportunities that I can love Ben and show it to him, the many more wonderful memories to be made!
I pray God, that'll you'll be a part of everything single thing that happens in our relationship, to work things out and rationalise things, to give us wisdom for discernment and words to build each other up.
2015, here I go (:
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