It's there in my head almost 24/7 still

But it's not hurt I feel, it's more of numb.

The loss I feel whenever I think about.

But I know it's different at your side.

These days are those days you just sit and wonder what could have been

But I mean it's done, what is left to ponder still?

The feeling of cards folded and thrown away still lies.

Resentment comes and goes...deep ones. But no one is to blame...I should have known better.

Look at the one above, what do I think He would do? It's painfully hard, not sure if anyone can ever understand but Him alone. 

I mean..I doubt anyone can heal me even if you try. It's only me and Him alone.