Let the fun begin

After such a long time of planning and everything, tomorrow's the big day!

Ready for Laser Tag, awesome

Night games with sparklers, glowing bottles and glow sticks, sports games, and the forst ever campfire in our church just to end of the final youth service of the year.

Not to say first time being a worship leader and playing for service too on Saturday. 

Manz can't wait for everything to start. Of course being nervous about so many things but am gonna pray to God tonight for everything. No rain no rain no rain!!!

gonna sleep now. :D

In a world like this I got you~

Haha omgosh don't normally take candids but I think this is one of them?

Amanda's Birthday!

It was a really nice time getting together with everyone again (:

Thought couldn't talk to everyone individually, but catching up with those few and just seeing everyone who took the time to come down was awesome (:

Christmas is coming!!

Hehe set up my Christmas tree today and bought my Christmas dress too! Can't wait for Christmas to come ^^

Tired but not drained

Yup came back from a whole afternoon of planning for P6 camp...so tired...
And of course learning how to plan worships for both Batam and the camp.
Scary stuff uhs haha, but a good first experience ba (:

This whole week has been well I would say a really busy and almost draining week...
with unnecessary quarrels, plannings, outings, more plannings, my dear being sick
Just need my rest.
Well I'm not drained haha...seeking God's help in so many things even now I have to write down my prayers cause I keep forgetting them.

Feeling kinda down now though...maybe just tired haha.
Maybe after much talking to different friends these few weeks personally...realised the different struggles they face with or without God. Some..I wouldn't even expect things would happen like this.
Haish...sometimes have this huge burden just to really tell them do much more...about my past, my stories everything...just don't have the words
Mostly all about parents...family...I don't know haha

Not everyone know about this anyways...only tell to those I want to tell...if not I won't say much..
thinking about 3 years...that's what all the doctors said that my mum will only live for another 3 years even after her chemo..seriously?
Don't wanna believe that at all...gonna pray and pray for a miracle, and faith is really all it takes...
Haish

haha and bought a box to specially put all my darling's letters and precious things into it
rummaging through all the letters and started reading through them and started crying for who knows what insane reason lol.
Is it bad? That I get so much more emotional as I grow older? lol
But seriously the sweetest words and how his actions and love has improved and grown so much more for me.

Well, I better go get some rest now.
Seeya.

Plannings...Thoughts...anything else random

Well, have been busy with Plannings for P6 camp and Batam stuff this month/ these few weeks.
Kinda glad how I'm spending my holidays so far. Went out with family and mum quite a couple of times, gonna watch movie with sis too soon next week, met up with my dear couple of times, got baptised, going to geography trip and Batam missions.
And of course, baked a couple of yummy goodies, exercise (now doing intervals which are really fun), went for tuition, etc. etc.

Quite meaningful ah so far (: Manz this year is gonna end soon, can't wait for Christmas though ^^

Well, have so many random thoughts now. Like Ben is going to India for missions...of all countries he chose India (or his cell leader chose it for him)...I mean India is like quite an unsafe place for girls maybe not so much for guys but still.....
Haish going for missions is being part of God's work, glorifying His name I trust God will take good care of him. But honestly, I still worry for him :(((
Plus he's not gonna be in Singapore during New Year's day....haha I think I'm weird getting all sad over this.
Dec is gonna be such a busy month for me.....when I'm not in Singapore he is, once I come back, my dear will be gone in two days time...HAISH :(((
Well, at least Jan I'll be pretty free, can't wait to see him after that haha.
Manz gonna pray many many for him.

Another random thought, what is going to happen to me? New subject combi, new friends, new everything again in school. Only thing that can comfort me right now is that I'll still have my friends, my family, my dear to support me, and God who will be with me throughout everything.
Haha honestly I'm excited to learn so much more about Geography, after reading Lit texts they are also interesting :D and Econs well I hope I won't drown like a lot of people always speculate about LOL.

And another thought, what is gonna happen to my mum?
I mean even after a chemo and her cancer is now stabalised...she still has this growth and she's taking all these many many supplements and high dose of vitamin C which leaves her with a high fever everytime the course comes.....sad uhs see this kinda stuff and cant do much about it...

Pray uhs that's the only hope when these kinda stuff happens. Slowly ah that's what Ben always say.
Yea lol I always so anxious sometimes (most of the times).


Haha well, enough of sad stuff I guess. Just last week my junior asked me again why am I always so optimistic..haha nice to hear that form people really (:
Seriously anything and everything can make you happy, but real happiness comes when God is in you, you dwell in Him and with that love that overwhelms it, you spread it to those around you as well.

Oh speaking about love...maybe I'm still young or something...but it's really wonderful to realise how I feel about Ben...really love him, how I slowly come to realise true love from my parents and of course the agape love of God. Manz....it's sooooo nice uhs ><
Soo ever since I felt this kinda real love, I can't really bring myself to use the word love on anything else haha (weird? But it's true)

So,
I love you Daddy, Mummy, Jie Jie ❤❤❤
I love you my sweet dear Ben ❤❤❤
and I love you God ❤❤❤
hehe ^^

Oreo Chocolate cupcakes!

Hehe ^^ yup so I baked again today!

Chocolate Oreo Cupcakes with oreo cookie base! (Not the crumbs but the cookie itself!)

Was so afraid because the batter turned out less thick then I expected it to be >< and i substituted vegetable oil with healthier olive oil. And it tasted AWESOME!!! So good that even my mum couldn't resist but have a bite xP

And my dad wants to eat it for breakfast tomorrow even though he doesn't like sweets.

Manz it's awesome really to have SUCCESS in baking after all the mixing, measuring etc. and the best part seeing people smile and says the cupcakes taste good :D

Well, gonna use this recipe to bake a mini mini cake for my dear too! Haha!

Day out ^^

Today was a good day ^^

Met up with my Darling and Lucas for lunch and then to study a bit after that. blah blah mingled around and then took long walks with my sweet dear too ^^

And then met up with Wei Liang and Gabriel for dinner! Haha omgosh seriously Wei Liang is really funny..

And yay passed the cookies I baked to my Dear too to spur him on for studies (although he's doing really well already haha!)

It was all musical notes/guitar/treble clef ^^ 

Good day today!

Baptism! 17 November

Well I should have posted this a few days ago. But anyways Sunday was a really beautiful day (: BIGGEST DAY EVER! Haha i really felt like I was getting married to God or something.

It was happiness to see my really special friends who woke up earlier just to see me (: Berek and Chryston ^^ (haish if Belle could make it...)

And of course my dear Ben. ❤

Thank you for being there guys, believe it or not you have made an impact to my life one way or another because you three were in my testimonial and i'm still telling people about all of you! ^^

I felt so happy really with my friends, cellmates and family there and I'll never forget 17 November. Important milestone of my life :D

Hehe got a really pretty cross necklace from my parents too ^^ (made of white gold they said :O )

Can't wait to get my certificate next week too! :D

Pretty day!

Well, I don't normally take selfies cause i feel really weird LOl. I think i only have three in my phone including this I just took today haha! 

Well, was wearing a pretty dress today so felt nice LOL 

Was around friends who love me so yay! Got reminded of God's compassion today ❤ 

Got reminded of how my darling Ben showed compassion to this man by giving him food like middle of this year when we were eating together ❤

Going to get baptised tomorrow and friends I treasure and will never forget, will be there too! ^^ (though belle can't make it ><) 

Today is just another pretty day and I love every part of it ❤

The Longest Ride

I think it's quite my thing to always write a review on Nicholas Sparks' books.

Well, just finished one of his newest books-The Longest Ride

And I knew it from the start that this is one of the many books that will pull at my heart strings and yes it did.

His books always make me read the epilogue again and again before I can close the book.

It was beautiful seeing how Ira's love for his wife, Ruth, prevailed till the end and how it helped him survived the injuries and the accident. And how more wonderful to see Luke and Sophie's love blossomed even through the differences and hardships.

Best of all they always found joy in each other. 

Well I would honestly say though that this book did not touched me as much as the previous books Safe Haven or The Best Of Me. But nonetheless, Nicholas Sparks really never fail to make me look forward to his next book ^^

It was great haha reading my books everyday once I'm home. Now on to the next book by another interesting author! Hector and The Secrets of Love and Hector's Search For Lost Time :D

Imperfections

Just finished gymming, and a random thought popped into my mind.

It's really amazing how I've come to love the imperfections of you. Some things that I was attracted to I realised were things that you didn't exactly like about yourself, and same for me as well.

And of course how the differences between us can actually make us feel better. You being quiet at times and not anxious over things makes me feel at ease whenever I get impatient so easily. A little coaxing and laughter from me just helps you open up more and makes you smile (: 

Hehe weird stuff I thought of after gymming but I guess it's something I'm really happy about (: that's when I realised what about you I love and why I really love you and us ❤

Touch!

So went for this small camp with Touch people at Bedok North Secondary School on Monday and Tuesday.

Well a bit lazy to elaborate on it haha. Just it was a not bad camp and experience for a first timer like me! (: Really enjoyed working with Shawn, Gabriel and Wei Liang haha, and met the other coaches/mentors too!  Omgosh I don't think I'll ever forget the funny stuff that Wei Liang did.

And yea surprisingly it was the easiest to talk to Gabriel, realised we came from the same kindergarden at my church and all haha! 

If there's a next camp, I'd go if I can (: well, see how it goes! :D

Thor!!!

Yea I've been wanting to catch this movie ever since the poster was put up at the movies haha!

Ok mainly cause I like the actor Thor/Chris Hemsworth haha! >< 

Had lecture in the morning then went out for lunch with JC peeps! Hehe then finally finally met my darling for movie and a good dinner. Best part was we talked about the touch camp I had on monday and tuesday about wei liang and gabriel which was sooo funny haha! 

Manz so great to finally be home to the ones whom I love and understand me and seeing my sweet dear again ❤

It's only just one day away from home...I guess extroverts really draw their energy from the people around them haha.

A whole day of being quieter than usual is really uncomfortable.

Well glad we talked about it ^^ and of course, can't wait for the next hehe ^^

 

Out with Belle! :D

Finally got to meet up for a good really filling lunch with Belle haha ^^

I think we talked like non-stop from start to end. Miss her so much ^^

OP over!

Yayyyy so today officially marks the end of Oral Presentation! Although we still have to submit group file and everything but yay finally ^^

It was a good journey with many hiccups along the way and I won't say our group is really close haha but yea it was still fine in the end :D 

Well went out with my dear later for lunch too, and today was just a good day! ^^

Baking for mum!

Yup so I just baked a cake for my mum's birthday tomorrow!

Can't bake tomorrow cause I have school and touch >< 

Well it's a first! Apple,honey,chopped walnuts and cinnamon cake! :D

taking time out for them

Well, feeling kinda ugh that I couldn't make it for BEAPM lunch on Saturday because had church and all.
Yea life kinda busy because of involvement in church stuff...But man I miss them still and really wanna spend time with them haish ><

Won't be free until thursday though, hopefully.
Hope to see you girls soon <3 p="">

My little pony!

My mum got me these ponies today hehe ^^

Rainbow Dash and Apple Jack! My two favourite ponies!!

Thanks mummy ❤

Love ❤

Had a good time today at church! ^^ 

Right before bed

Well so posting this just right before my bedtime haha.

Things I feel like thanking God for suddenly.

-For always being there for me

-For providing me with awesome friends

-For leading me to touch today while I was aimlessly walking following a blue dot on google map HAHA

-Having a good first time at touch!

-For everyday where my sweet dear and I talk and say goodnight to each other before we sleep hehe ^^

-For a wonderful family who loves me no matter what

-For being faithful 

-And a good day everyday.

Goodnight God! 

Pray that I'll be able to show this love to others somehow~