God is good, all the time

Wheeee so yea it's nice to start blogging more often nowdays.
kinda forgot how fun is it to blog now and then haha
Well, so got back my results, main aim was to obviously do my best and pass everything buuuut passing science was impossible haish.
At least I'm glad that I've passed my GP, Math, and Geog (that I'm taking back tomorrow but duh I'm gonna pass that..if I don't I can bang my head lol)

Well, I gotta work really hard, just glad my parents are supportive of it and still happy and all.
And I can't say I don't feel sian or happy or something. Getting U grades for two H2 subjects ain't great. Have been feeling down the whole day :'(

Jc1 really wasn't great. ..
1) studied hard for Mid-years but got sick and missed all (except GP)...
2) Cca dates clashed with church...
3) Self-esteem was really lowered down by my peers in school...
4)Felt like I was bullied by my peers and so alone for the first time in my entire schooling life...
5) Had family health issues and other random problems...
6) Sucky results for Promos...
7) and Made wrong decisions and gotta switch stream..

But the thing is,
1) People start coming up to me asking why am I always so happy everyday
2) cca dates changed on the exact day I prayed for it to be changed
3) Friends outside of JC encouraged me and show that I'm still important to them
4) My family grew closer
5) My mum conquered an illness so great
6) I'm growing much more spiritually (dependency on God, prayer, faith)
7) Relationship with Ben has grown
8) I don't feel like I'm any less loved by anyone else
9) I know I'm stronger now

Yes, I remembered even halfway through JC1 I still missed secondary school life and friends..wondering why things couldn't stay that way forever. Even now I miss those times.
But the thing is, secondary life was my season where I prospered in school, where I was blessed with amazing friends, where everything I shone was in school.

But now I finally realised this year I guess is my season of growing a lot spiritually and relationships wise. Everything that happened I can't see how I could have went through without God really. Many miracles happened before my eyes. If none of this came, would Ben keep telling me to depend on God and not on him or any other human beings?
Would Ben point out the fact of being at peace?
He reminded me about what I learnt in church, about being at peace isn't about a smooth journey in life, but being able to be in the right relationship with God and let him be in control even in the storm.
And I thank God for that.

I really find it impossible to think that if God wasn't looking out for me, helping me, and guiding me I would be able to come out of JC1 feeling good. Yes honestly I'm feeling down now because of my suckish grades..because of the fact that I gotta leave my friends and work a lot harder next year.

But I can also say that this year has been really fruitful, one of the most fruitful one of all. I will never forget this year because I came out of it with many blessings. Whatever obstacle that was thrown at me, God showered it with blessing (every single one of them) 
My mum...was a miracle I love God and I love her so much more now.
The troubles that Ben and I had, we got out of it together with God there nudging us all the time. Prayer and love was what got us this far. And I can feel I love him so much more now, and him as well.


I can type this forever because I really have everything to thank my dear God for^^
God,I think it's one of the best you've got me in, got me through, and got me out of. 
After everything I got closer to my family, to Ben, and especially to God :D
Hope what I've gone through, can be a blessing to my friends!

God is always faithful, He is always good. Forever and forever and forever~~~
❤