Mirrors of Mirrors

All this time, it was juz me

Many things, so many to even count.
It was day after day that I started learning new things frm this situation.
I didn't know that it would end this way way.
I didn't know it would end this bad too,
and at the same time this amazingly.

How many countless times I told myself to 4get about it
and how many times I blogged about tis....
its getting kinda old maybe.
and then I tell myself that I can, but I changed my mind and say i can't.

***Well, here's the interesting part.
I thought about this>
Maybe I've alrdy gotten over u,
its juz the feeling of loss and success still linger here in my heart.
And bcause I'm afraid of losing the feeling and had 4 this long,
Maybe I'm juz tryin to not let myself lose it.
and whenever I see u, I still feel for u, but I've maybe alrdy gotten over u.***

Can you possibly understand what I mean?
Now tell me what can I do to help myself?